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2007-04-09

First Blooms  


I saw the first blooms of sunflower while walking along the Univesity Avenue a while ago. Reminded me of summer, of the sun and of graduation. Reminded me of nature, of God, and of life...
Finally, I am done of college and off to my new path in the corporate world. I'm happy that after long months of waiting (starting November last year after I passed my thesis), I now have what I could call a job. It is really a blessing, considering I didn't really do something with it, and I would say God really gave me this one. I remember, after I took the examination, I was so frustrated with myself because I felt I did not do my best. But here I am. Only by grace.
This week has been a rest for me, with the long weekend -- Holy Week and Araw ng Kagitingan. And once again, I was reminded of how my life has been really nothing except that a man hanging on a cross loved me enough to die in my place. Continually, I struggle to live a life worthy of His calling, but there is the assurance that even though I fall and get wounded and scratched along the way, He is there to help me stand and lead me to His path.
The first blooms of the sunflower: a new beginning. Stepping into a new future of working and hopefully applying what has been learned all through out the years spent in the university... Perhaps, a new hope, renewed strength, revived inspiration. Just like a flower in bloom, living the life he or she has been so purposely made by the Creator.

2007-03-16

Refine Me  

I come into this place
Burning to receive Your peace;
I come with my own chains
For wars I fought for my own selfish gains...



How often we are led astray by our own selfish ambitions? And how often we pray to God that He lead us back to His own will, back to His loving arms? How often do we ask Him to restore our souls, restore our lives, restore our brokenness? How often do we seek follow Him instead of our own ways of doing things?



My heart can't see,
When I only look at me
My soul can't hear,
When I only think of my own fears...



Most of the times, we rely on our strength when we are faced with things we think we need to deal with. What happens after are more frusrations, more disappointments, more discouragements for we think we have not done our best, and because our efforts are not enough. Just because we have thought we can do it on our own when the truth is we can't really. We are but one creation in this equally created world. And the best "Person" who could actually help us is when we turn our eyes to the Creator of all things. Who else but Him have the answer to our every query? Who else but Him have the strength, the wisdom, the power to do things according to its best purpose? Who else knows the next best thing? Who else have love enough to sacrifice His own Son for His rebellious people to be reconciled to Him; and with that same love grants forgiveness to everyone who ask for it, and who gives grace and mercy and compassion to those who need it the most -- His people, His children.



Lord, come with Your fire
Burn my desires refine me
Lord, my will have deceive me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child,
For I long to be reconciled to You..



Lord, we praise You for You are the God of love, You are love, and it is You who continue to love us in spite of our shortcomings. You are our Lord, our Saviour; You are ever-present help in trouble, You our our help in times on need. By Your grace, we are saved from the penalty of our sins, which is death, and through Your Son, who died on the cross for us, we can have life eternal. Forgive us dear Lord for heeding our own ways, forgive us for focusing our minds on the things of this world. Forgive us for satisfying ourselves with our own accompplishments, thinking that they can make us feel worth it, thinking that they can even make us happy. But You alone O Lord satisfies us even with our deepest longings. You alone can give us everlasting joy. And in You alone we feel our very worth, our very purpose here on earth. For indeed, without You, we are nothing, apart from You, we are mere creations wandering into the darkness. You are our only Way, our Truth, and our Life. You are the One who lights our paths and guides us in our daily walks, who directs our steps and gave meaning to our very being. May You give us wisdom O Lord in every decision we would make. May You give us strength in every trial that we are facing. Comfort us when we feel discouraged and frustrated about circumstances in life, even with people and help us to also forgive, help us to give the love which You have showed to us first and foremost. Lord, may You continue to reveal to us Your will in our lives, direct us to places You are calling us. Lord, may every thing in our life be according to Your Divine will. May we continue to shine Your light, may our lives be Son-reflectors; just as the moon reflects the light coming from the sun, may we be the moon for You. Thank You dear Lord for this privilege of coming to You in prayer. To You alone be the glory, praise and thanksgiving. This I pray, in Christ's precious name. Amen.



It's all I can do,
To give my heart and soul to You and pray
And pray, oh I will pray.



* Thank you to Jennifer Knapp's Refine Me.