interview anxiety
it's my interview with the VP for CHCOD today at 1:30 pm.. i am having anxiety attacks right now, haha! hope i will be confident enough.. confident is not a very familiar word to me.. i feel so cold already, and am shaking.. (must be the aircon, haha).. i just hope i wouldn't ruin it.. and hope that i would be shortlisted.. and accepted eventually, hehe.. derf has been telling me since yesterday that i can do this.. *sighs* can i forward the time to tomorrow, or tonight, so i wouldn't have to go through this whole ordeal anymore? haha! escapist perspective.. this is my first time to be really interviewed, my first time to be interviewed actually for a job position.. haha! that's why i'm so anxious.. i have no background or anything to compare with at all.. first time.. i hate these butterflies.. haha! i use to love butterflies.. but i want seeing them, not lurking around and over my stomach and heart.. haha! am i prepared enough? i have been researching for various interview questions.. and i practiced answering just this morning in front of my small mirror.. haha! but it's really different when it's actual.. of course, it should be different.. because i would not be talking to myself anymore, and not talking to a mirror, but a person (with high standard and integrity), an executive more accurately.. i also have to practice sitting straight and talking loud enough.. and i put a little make-up on my face which i've been practicing since i found out i am scheduled for an interview, and which got me a few pimples on my face (although i am not sure if this is make-up related, hehe).. i have another dilemma.. i have a skirt here to go with my long sleeves and blazer.. but i'm not sure if the skirt if formal enough for an interview.. although it looks like one to me.. hehe.. i just hope it will look like formal also to the one who will interview me.. grr, i really feel cold.. and i'm wearing a blazer already, and i have stockings, and i'm still on my slacks.. i'll just change into my skirt later.. 3 more hours and 30 minutes..
